User blog:VendettaVisionGuy/Will I ever leave?

Hey, I'm VendettaVisionGuy, one of the wiki's staff members.

I want to talk a subject that has been on my mind for weeks since I've been on here. It's about decisions and retirement.

First off, I've been suffering from more than profile picture changes. I haven't been good at things other than the wiki for some time. Career and enjoyment are getting the best of me to this day since nearly 10 months, and my current reasons of failure all lead to this one place. I go through personal arguments just for touching a screen, but inside, I already see what's going on with everything in my life. Yet, I still embrace arguments. Why?

This wiki. It's changing me.

I attempt to improve a wiki to be better than several thousand other wikis only to end up being ignorant in the real world. I warn users to stop breaking laws only to not care about life. The worst part about it is that I die inside whenever I hear life in here being compared to life in the US. My family used to be paid by the IRS outside of work, and I got free education. Yet, it's killing the country, and only I can see it. Everybody in the country is stupid regardless of grade level, which makes the US go behind in worldwide education ranks. The reason why the richest nation is behind in education is because of free payment. Unless if I'm not in a coma where I have schizophrenia, I refuse to say yes to a blonde anthropomorphic carrot if I want to be smart and live a better life only to be stupid again.

It's not because I don't play Pixel Gun 3D anymore which makes me feel useless. I still go here even though there's other interests waiting to be touched. It's my life.

What am I doing with it? Why didn't I do this when I had the chance? Why didn't I explain everything to save my future?

So it all comes down to this, am I leaving?

The truth...

No. At least not yet.

I just wanted to tell everyone what is going on with myself and how it affects myself being here. However, when my life goes down to the point where nothing is taken back, then it'll come down. If I leave with a heavy heart and trust for everyone I met and idolized, especially my successor, then it'll be time to finish what I should've regretted.

I hope everyone understands. It's been crazily fun here, but if I did the right thing months ago, I wouldn't be swinging around with negative feelings.

(VVGsig2.png 05:06, January 15, 2017 (UTC)